I have cried more in the last couple of months
than in my entire life, I think.
Too many changes and decisions.
My kids growing up.
Friends moving away.
Church difficulties.
It's all seemed to come at once.
And I don't like it.
But...
I know God's timing is perfect.
And...
I know He is in control.
That's what I'm holding on to.
I tell my kids all the time that their behavior,
or how they respond to something or someone,
is a choice.
THEIR choice.
So I'm trying to choose joy, peace.
I'm trying not to let all of these yucky things
make me yucky to others.
It's hard.
But when I'm intentional about it
and seek the Lord's guidance,
I feel so much better.
And hopefully I'm a nicer person to be around.
So, yah, that's where I'm at right now.
Life is just hard sometimes.
I'm choosing to find the pretty in things.
